Darkness

Do any of my fellow readers get caught in the emotion of the story they are working on? I think that might be part of my problem with this one. It is SO dark, and I'm writing about heavy stuff that I kind of know nothing about, I think that it is sapping my energy.

These last few days, I want nothing more than to sleep. I need to write 2 hours a day (average that, at least) but as soon as I'm vertical I just want to lie back down on the bed and read or play games on my phone. I have no energy.

I think it's all going into this book that will never see the light of day. 

I'm exhausted.

But I'm writing.

I finally asked my reader, and they admitted that they were only working on it "in spurts". So I pushed for a commitment to finish before the month is out. I need to get into that one. There's joy, and illumination, and friendships in that one.

This current WIP is the loneliest thing I've written.

Of course, I'm the creator, so I'm filling my time trying to devise plausible scenes that show friendship and camaraderie. Hopefully that will help me through the next couple weeks.

Until then, I'm in transit through a dark place, just trying to stay afloat.

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